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My life sucks and I have never been happier

Okay it is hard to figure out if I have never been happier or not, but it sure feels like it. It’s not that my life is really that much better. I’m probably worse off in a lot of ways than I have been in the past. I’m not in a relationship so it can’t be that either. I just changed a bit. It wasn’t a big change, but the change (whether it is permanent or not is still to be decided) has effected my overall mood towards life.

I’ve always had a couple of issues that prevented me from doing things bigger than I do them now. One is that I almost expected my talent meant that I already inherited success. When you can do something easily doesn’t mean it will happen because you usually aren’t getting it done. I know you didn’t know that so that is why I am sharing it with you now.

Last week I cleaned my room because I got tired of looking at the mess. The problem was that I do that with everything in life, I like to wait till I am fed up with something before taking action. Well here is a newsflash for you: life is so much easier if you take care of an issue before it even becomes an issue. It is brilliant. Where is my nobel?

Think about how this works in relationships. You know you have a problem with a co-worker or spouse and instead of bringing it up before it tears you up inside you may try to lock it in or complain to a friend. Over time the issues build up like a stack of dirty laundry until they are so big you can’t get over them. You see something wrong why not just take care of it then.

When I was younger I had a bad habit of walking over something that was on the floor. If my dad was behind me he would ask why did I just step over that instead of picking it up. I would shrug and just say that I didn’t see it as that big of a deal. How silly of me. Issues are never big issues on their own. It takes a bunch of small issues to come together before any big issue is ever seen.

What is funny is that the small issues are never issues that we don’t recognize. We know they exist and yet we just move along because they are small issues. Taking care of the issue as it occurs makes life ten times easier. Of course I am simplifying everything because I am comparing my ability to keep my house clean with every other aspect of life.

However, I have found that I enjoy doing the work I need to do because I don’t have lingering issues hanging over my head. I still hate waking up, but once I’m up life starts off on a high because I have nothing to do but what I enjoy doing. I understand everyday can’t be like this (or maybe it can), but the difference between two weeks ago and now is staggering to me.

I only say my life sucks because it sucked to me two weeks ago and again nothing much has changed except how I go about it. That in turn made me happier and I guess means my life really doesn’t suck.